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I AM HELD

July 8, 2018

Held

Even though I am in a place I did not choose or want to be, I am held. Even with a body broken and failing, I am held. Even in the darkest valley, I am held.

How do I know God is holding me together? Because He holds ALL things together.

 

He is before all things and in Him all things hold together.

Colossians 1:17

Yes, it is Mindful Monday, dear friends. It is strange even to write those words since I have not been here in awhile. I took a break from weekly blogging over six months ago having no clear idea why. I just knew, deep in my soul, God was asking me to step back and take a break. So I did.

And a lot has happened since then…

Because by the time you read this, I will be undergoing major surgery at the Cleveland Clinic. You have no idea how I have wrestled and waited, struggled and second-guessed, with letting you know.

Not because I am ashamed, not because I do not trust you and not because I am fearful.

I am held.

When I started this blog over six years ago, I did so with YOU in mind. I desperately wanted to:

  • Connect with you.
  • Encourage you.
  • Hear from you.

I wanted to show how my faith and my life intersect and to point you to the truth I have found through my relationship with God and the Bible. And in doing so, I have shared parts of my heart, my life, and my struggles.

By nature, I am a private person. My son calls me a social introvert (I think because he is one too!). I love to connect with people, but if you see me in a crowd I am not the life of the party nor do I ever seek to be the center of attention; instead, you will probably find me off in a corner talking seriously to someone one on one. That’s my zone.

So going “public” with this news is so very hard for me. In fact, I have written and deleted this post countless times. And my stomach will be in knots when I get up the nerve to press the “publish” button.

But I heard a message this morning at church (thank you, Pastor Todd Iannetta) that made me wonder if this decision to keep this part of my life separate and closed off was more about me than you. More about my pride, my desire to appear strong and in control, my unwillingness to be completely transparent. He reminded me that authentic relationships require 3 things:

  • Trust
  • Transparency
  • Truth

So here it is…I trust you enough to be totally transparent and tell you the truth.

Although many of you know I have systemic lupus (SLE), I was diagnosed with another (and unrelated) autoimmune disease called Myasthenia Gravis in November, 2017. Hard to pronounce…and even harder to describe.

After several tests that confirmed this diagnosis as well as a chest scan that discovered an enlarged thymus, many of my doctors suggested that I consult with a thoracic surgeon to have my thymus removed. Removal of my thymus gives me a 30% chance of sending the disease into remission and a 40% chance of stopping it where it is now. I thought those were pretty promising stats.
So that I where I am today…having my thymus removed (robotically, thank the Lord!). I will be in the hospital for a few days and have several weeks of recovery at home.
Why do I tell you this? Because this is a very real crossroads where my faith and my life intersect. Either everything I have been writing and speaking about God is true…or it is not. Either I live what I say I believe…or I am fraud.
All Is Well
This is how I walked into surgery early this morning.

ALL IS WELL.

BECAUSE I AM HELD.

 

I know this deep in my soul. I trust God completely believing He is working out all of this for my good and His glory. It is a part of my story, so I embrace it without fear.

Weakness, fatigue, stumbling and even falling have been a part of this journey, but God is faithful! I am claiming Psalm 121 knowing that God promises to protect and provide!

Psalm 121 (New Living Translation)

1 I look up to the mountains—
    does my help come from there?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
    who made heaven and earth!

3 He will not let you stumble;
    the one who watches over you will not slumber.
4 Indeed, he who watches over Israel
    never slumbers or sleeps.

5 The Lord himself watches over you!
    The Lord stands beside you as your protective shade.
6 The sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon at night.

7 The Lord keeps you from all harm
    and watches over your life.
8 The Lord keeps watch over you as you come and go,
    both now and forever.

While I may be off the grid for a few weeks, my desire is to return to blogging soon. I know God has a lot to teach me through this experience, so I hope to use it to encourage those you who may be experiencing trials of your own. I am learning that God does not waste anything.

However, I am going to be careful about how much I share on social media. This particular post is only going out to my email subscribers, so if you want to continue to walk with me on this journey, please sign up by filling out the box on the right sidebar.

Beyond grateful for each of you.
Forever held in the everlasting arms,
Carla

16 Comments | At the Crossroads, Encouragement, faith and life, Journey

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Comments

  1. Drema Temple says

    July 9, 2018 at 7:30 am

    Carla,
    I am praying for you and your family!

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  2. Emily Korosec says

    July 9, 2018 at 7:54 am

    Carla, thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story because through it I am able to be encouraged as I go through some intense surgery of my own in October! This blog post was just what I needed to read this morning! Thank you for allowing God to use you in this way. I will be praying for you this morning and as you continue on the path to recovery!

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  3. Jeanette Ladner says

    July 9, 2018 at 9:25 am

    Praying for you! Thank you for sharing and opening your heart to us all.

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  4. Sheryl Hallgarth says

    July 9, 2018 at 11:10 am

    Thank you for sharing your life, your journey, and all God is teaching you! You encourage and inspire me! It is a privilege to pray for you and your family!

    Reply
  5. Roni Faller says

    July 9, 2018 at 11:49 am

    Blessings and lifting you in prayer. If you ever need prayer I have found comfort and strength from the folks at Unity where you can talk and pray anytime.

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  6. Janet says

    July 9, 2018 at 1:22 pm

    Dearest Carla,
    Thank you for sharing this, I know it was hard to do. Thank you for allowing us the privilege to come alongside you for once… to lift you up… to encourage you. Call if I can do anything!
    Love you,
    Janet

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  7. Lynn says

    July 9, 2018 at 1:22 pm

    Praying for you. 🙏🏼💓

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  8. LeAnn says

    July 9, 2018 at 1:46 pm

    Oh Carla, I wish I could give you a warm hug and tell you that I see Jesus in you. Your heart of authenticity is beautiful and I am honored to walk along beside you. Thank you for courageously sharing this part of your story. I am praying today and will continue. I am so very sorry you are facing so many challenging health issues. I am privileged to call you my friend. I love you. I look forward to reading what God continues to put on your heart.

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  9. Gina H says

    July 9, 2018 at 2:35 pm

    💜

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  10. Linda Hill says

    July 9, 2018 at 2:45 pm

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you .
    Linda and Griff

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  11. Kim Wills says

    July 9, 2018 at 4:05 pm

    I saw so many Praise songs in the verses you quoted! Hope they come to mind to you also! There are so many prayers being offered on your behalf.
    P.S. I thought I was the only “Social introvert” – love being in among the crowd, HATE being the center of attention!

    Reply
  12. Gretchen Grob says

    July 9, 2018 at 7:32 pm

    Thank you for your post Carla. Praying

    Reply
  13. Jackie Judd says

    July 10, 2018 at 11:05 pm

    Prayers for healing, strength and peace.
    Love
    Jackie J

    Reply
  14. Miriam says

    July 12, 2018 at 9:03 am

    Carla,
    Thank you for sharing, I will be praying your recovery goes well, seeing this after your surgery. He does not waste a thing and your heart for Him is evident. I was up at the clinic all day yesterday with my daughter at her yearly heart Dr. Appointments. Also visited our account who is in a vegetative state after botched care…Been to two funerals, and a dear friend suddenly lost his sister yesterday. Love here is hard but we are held and I’m grateful for the reminder. Lord pour fresh hope over Carla right now and may her recovery go well, using this surgery in helping heal her body for your glory Lord.

    Reply
    • CarlaGasser says

      August 1, 2018 at 4:08 pm

      Thank you for this dear prayer, Miriam! I am so very touched and blessed! Yes, there is trouble in this world, but thank God that Jesus has overcome the world and we have a hope and a future!

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  15. Krista Lentz says

    July 19, 2018 at 8:57 am

    Carla, I am continuing to pray for your recovery. Thank you for your beautiful words, they are such an encouragement to me.

    Love & Hugs,
    Krista

    Reply

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When not teaching, speaking, or writing, Carla Gasser is most herself as a wife and mom living in Ohio with her four very active (and hilarious!) children (ages 22, 21, 18, & 15). She has been married over 28 years and is thankful for being able to do life with such a supportive and loving partner.  She writes and speaks about the messy, ordinary, and unexpected ways her life and her faith intersect.  Her passion is connection: encouraging others to seek God at the place of connection, serve their families and others on the path and connection, and support each other within the context of a caring and committed community as they strive to become people of connection.

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